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So there's an iPhone app for this [Nov. 18th, 2010|11:22 pm]
Scarlet Love
Who knew? I haven't logged on in forever. Maybe I'll start posting again.

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things i have learned since moving out (not quite finished) [Jan. 19th, 2009|08:00 pm]
Scarlet Love
moving costs money
a broom and dust pan is ten times better than a swiffer
puppies are a pain in the ass
bills come every month
the refridgerator does not clean itself
neither do toilets
or showers
groceries are expensive
you CAN live on cereal
mom made spagetti because it was easy
grass grows really fast
half of all brand new socks will mysteriously disappear
having a husband is a lot like having a sibling
nice scissors are invaluable

I already knew these things but they have recently come into clearer perspective.

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(no subject) [Jul. 23rd, 2007|12:09 pm]
Scarlet Love
So, life has been treating me pretty good lately...

I got through my first semester of Nursing School, and I'm getting ready to start my second (just three more to go).  This semester is supposed to be the hardest.  It's pretty much the one where they weed the people out who aren't serious enough.  You have to really work hard and want to be there in order to pass.  Let's just say my friends might not see me a whole lot in the coming months. 

Work is going well so far.  I just passed my 90 day evaluation.  It's strange though because I've never really had a "job" job.  All my other jobs have been something I've enjoyed, and this one, well... this one just pays my bills.  I go to work, I come home, and I don't really feel much of anything about it.  I guess the good side of it is that it's easier to leave my work problems at work and not carry them around all the time.  But on the same token it's kind of.., I dunno, empty.  I just miss taking care of people.  I mean, that's something I felt really good doing.  Maybe I'll get a job with hospice after this semester is over.

On another note...  I've been going through some changes lately, with how I look at things and how I feel about myself, and while it's somewhat scary, I think I've come to some good realizations in the past few weeks.  And... I dunno I feel like a cloud's been lifted or something (as corny as that sounds).  I mean, I woke up this morning and realized that I'm happy... that I feel good about my life and everything that's going on right now.  Nothing compares to that kind of peace.  Perhaps I'll explain more later.
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(no subject) [Mar. 2nd, 2007|08:01 am]
Scarlet Love
Wow, it's been awhile.  A lot's happened since the last time I updated.  Let's see....

Well, for starters, Nigel and I are living together now.  We moved in to my parents' newly finished basement around christmas time, and it has been the greatest.  I really love being able to sleep next to him at night; it makes me feel safe.

And speaking of "nights" and "sleep," I quit my night shift job, and I've been unemployed for a little over a month now.  Nursing school didn't really fit my work schedule so my parents have been helping me out lately as far as expenses go.  

I hate being a mooch, though, so being broke and unemployed is only a temporary thing.  I actually just got a job as a patient transporter at St. Mary's hospital.  The work is fairly simple and the pay is really good.  Hell, it's more than I was making at Fenwick.  I've been busy with all the pre-employment stuff this past week, and I have to go back today to get my PPD read and discuss scheduling with my new boss. 

Nursing school has been going pretty well.  Lab is especially fun, because it's all hands on learning.  And unlike some of the prerequisites, it doesn't feel like a waste of time.  I mean, the skills we're learning are skills that we'll be using for our whole careers.  It's all very exciting, and everyone feels it.  Everyone has that feeling like "Wow, I'm finally here!"

Nursing school is so different from regular classes.  In Nursing school you share all your classes with the same people for two years.  I've actually gotten to know many of my classmates just over the past few weeks, and it's almost like having a support group.  Everyone studies together, helps each other; it's a team.

On another note, I turned 21 at the beginning of this month.... yeah... I'm such a cliche.  There are pictures of my first real drinking experience up on my myspace.  You can't get to them, though, unless I friend you, so just send me a friend request if you want to see them.

Well... that's all I can think of for now.  It's time for me to get to the gym to shed some more winter weight.  Maybe I'll be on later.
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just two more years, bitches!! [Nov. 10th, 2006|03:20 pm]
Scarlet Love
I guess I kind of had to think through this thing, and that's why I wasn't excited about it at first. That's why I didn't tell many people. It means changes for me, big changes. And well, I know this is delayed news but...

I got into the Nursing Program!!!
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(no subject) [Nov. 8th, 2006|07:40 am]
Scarlet Love
I had an exhausting night. I am just completely drained, not physically but emotionally. Do any of you have any idea of what it's like to sit next to a person that's just laying in a bed, dying slowly? This woman was literally laying there drowning. Everytime she exhaled, I could hear that death rattle. And everytime she inhaled I waited for a silence to follow. I honestly didn't think that she would make it through the night. That's why I stayed in her room during all the down time.

At around 2am, she started to look really bad, so I gave her a bed bath and lotioned her skin real good. Then I cleaned her hair and teeth. She had so much phlemn in her mouth, I had to clear it out with a wet rag and some listerine. When I finished that, I put some powder on her brush and ran it through her gray hair to soak up all of the oils. No one should have to die looking the way she did, and no one should have to die alone, either, which is why I sat with her.
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(no subject) [Oct. 30th, 2006|07:49 am]
Scarlet Love
I got I new haircut. It's not what I wanted, but it's grown on me (pun not intended) and now I love it. It's on my new userpic but there's a better pic on my myspace.
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(no subject) [Oct. 27th, 2006|09:02 am]
Scarlet Love
I almost got rear-ended by a dump truck going about 50mph. Man, it feels good to be alive!
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cooking now [Oct. 25th, 2006|07:25 am]
Scarlet Love
The great thing about having a diet that excludes you from eating with the family, is that you learn real quick how to cook for yourself. I learned how to sautee veggies on the stove. Sounds simple I know, but this is coming from the person who once almost burnt the house down with a bag of popcorn. A person who until the age of 16 refused to go near a stove or oven, not even to cook ramen noodles.
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(no subject) [Oct. 23rd, 2006|02:10 am]
Scarlet Love
Well, not much has been going on with me lately. Work, school, Nigel, sleep... same old same old. I got promoted to "lead caregiver" at work. My raise was 50 cents, nothing spectacular, but it adds up. Of course it seems, good news always comes attached to bad news, and I did get some bad news this week. I recieved my rejection letter from the college for the nursing program. Mom opened the envelope over the phone. I had thought for sure I would have gotten in but it said that, while I met the requirements, all available spots have been filled. Bummer, right? I cried so much, I had to skip my next class.

It's so frustrating because all I have left for my degree are those nursing classes. I've spent the past three and a half years getting all of my core courses out of the way. What am I supposed to do now? I have no other classes to take next semester, at least none that can go towards my degree. What's worse is that I can't just take a semester off, because then the college loan people will start sending me bills that I can't afford to pay without my degree. I feel like I'm stuck. I mean, I can apply for next fall, but what if I don't get in then? And what should I do in the meantime?

Sorry if I'm rambling. I've asked myself these questions every day this week, and I'm just tired of thinking about it so much. I wish I knew what to do. All I know is that this is the career for me, I don't want to go for something else because this is the thing I have a passion for. You know what I mean? I feel like I wouldn't be good at something I don't feel passionate about.
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